it's the bread of astronauts!


Makes my head implode a little

I went to this seminar thing today and by the last hour I was making weird doodles on the back of one of the sheets that was passed out. Since I didn't want to keep doodling on that sheet, I started right away in my sketchbook as soon as I got home and came up with this after about an hour and some (I was also on the phone, so multi-tasking means less work completed in the same amount of time). It's on a sheet of paper that's bigger than 8x11.5 ... I'd say maybe 10 x 14?

In any case it's larger than it looks in the picture, but because it's just a doodle I didn't want to make it so big. And the picture quality is craptacular because I took it in dim light and upped the contrast in 'shop.

The seminar was interesting, don't get me wrong, it's just that I'd been at work for 44 hours since Sunday by that point (both Tues and Wed were twelve-hours-at-the-office days and I worked on my day off) and was getting kind of sick of ... you know... being awake.

Yay goopy blobs with blobs inside of them.

I'm thinking of turning them down in terms of working on the shul's website. They have truly lofty goals that I could not hope to achieve in 6 hours a week after already working 4 jobs (for them, remember, I already have four different positions in the shul).

Oh, so I started putting together my packets for the high school class and I realize I'm putting way too much work into something that these kids are not going to look at. I made three pages in Publisher that look like they are from a textbook, but really I just copied and pasted material from websites in - I cited my sources and even had a bibliography, so nyeh.

OH! And you'll never guess what. Drew from let me use a few of his cartoons in it. I can't believe it took me so long to find his cartoons again. I remember obsessively reading them probably around 2 or 3 years ago, but then he moved them all. They used to just be in a random directory on some website, completely disorganized, just a list of files. They cracked me up. Like this cartoons make my eyes cross and my head implode a little from confusion and hilarity.

Anyway. I was excited. Not that these kids will care. I bet they won't even get it.

I set up a message board for my youth group to communicate through the website and some of the kids didn't know what a message board was. But the funnier part about the story was when another one of the kids explained it, she described it as something like an AIM conversation, except it stays up forever.


I was like, back in the old days before AIM was big, that's how people talked online (besides chatrooms). I remember those days... RPing Wheel of Time fanfic on the net by message board. Wow, I'm a superdork. They told me I was dating myself. I'm freaking 6 years older than these kids and I'm dating myself? My boyfriend has this theory that because of technology, age differences are getting bigger. Like six years ago, the internet was a very different place than it is now, wasn't it?

On another note I am thinking of taking a jewelry making class on Monday nights. I think that would be neat.



Phew life is busy over here.

My left shoulder is significantly darker than my right, although my boyfriend can't tell. It's from the strong Houston sun tanning me during my only hours outside (in the car.. is that outside?).

I can't wait until it's cool enough, the mosquitoes are dead enough, that I can sit outside on my deck at night and eat or sip wine or let the pigs play in the grass in the afternoon. I'm looking for the beautiful Houston weather that exists from October to May. Right now it's not bad, it's sunny most times and thunderstorms only for 20min spurts, but still. I want to be able to walk around the outside shopping center and not dress to sweat.

I'm thinking of buying this table:

I have more than 300 envelopes to stuff. 64 before tomorrow, 250 before Wednesday at 2pm.

I have three meetings tomorrow. Two on Wednesday. One mini-conference on Thursday. I haven't had a real day off since August 8. But I'm getting paid on Friday, and although it's not hourly, it still feels sweet (and just in time to pay my rent check and credit card bill).

I started a new print. I'll have pictures later.

I want to go to kinkos and play with random magazine cut-outs and their color copy machine. This requires my obsessive magazine cutting skizills and magazine collecting skizills. Luckily IKEA sent me their yearly (not sure why). All I have to do is pick up every free magazine I can get my hands on.

I need a computer chair like whoa.

I hope I don't miss out on the used book sale at the JCC. $2 hardcover, $1 paperback [all books]

I need to go to bed 30min ago.


Good news, everyone!

I'm going to be making more money soon! Or, possibly. Let's backtrack.

I had designs to redo the youth group webpage ever since I saw what the previous person had done. It was just blinky and scrolly and the photos weren't organized. But it won Best Webpage in the region award... So that tells me that either it was the only website in the region or nobody had any photos up in an even semi-organized way. Anyhoo, I'd been making pretend designs over the summer so when I got here I had one ready in two weeks. It's the most basic site ever and I *gasp* used frames... now I can go back and take the frames out because I figured out how to substitute them, but that's not the point.

A simple website that I did in two weeks. I sent it to the rabbi who is in charge of the youth stuff and he sent it to the other rabbis, who sent it around and around and around and soon everyone who is anyone at the shul has seen it.

So today at what will become the first of my biweekly meetings with said rabbi, I was offered the additional job of working on the shul's official website. I don't think I've mentioned this in the past, but it is the largest Conservative shul in the country, second largest on the continent (I think there's one in Toronto that wins the largest), but they don't have a webmaster. So now I get to do it! And they're going to pay me extra, too!

I'm already thinking of what kinds of things I'm going to do to it... like put in a real calendar, make it look professional, get rid of the rainbow that's in their logo (my boyfriend thought it was the synagogue for the gay and lesbian community, no joke). I'm trying to think of what a good rate would be for them to pay me... like, I'm not exactly professional, but I kind of know what I'm doing. So I figure $30-35/hour is a good rate for a web designer and I'll be working 5-6 hours/week. That's what my web designer friend said would bea good rate, anyway. He said professional free-lancers work for about $60/hour and he gets paid $20/hour because he is a full-time employee. But I'm already full-time doing four other jobs. I hope it's a fair amount.

And if I work for $30-35/hour for 6 hours/week, I could save up a pretty penny by investing. I'm also going to be deducting about $500 from my paycheck every month. All of this to save for ...


I'm so excited. Really. Because if I save enough money, I could live my dream of going to school and not working. At all. Living completely off of savings - possibly working, at the most, 10-15 hours a week to pay for fun expenses like bar outings, etc. I could take a year off and go to Israel and then go to grad school. I could go traveling. I could do so many things because I'd actually have quite a lot of money saved up.

But the idea that I could actually save up money and go to grad school and not work full time so I can focus on art... I just don't know how to put into words how excited I am. Because in undergrad I couldn't focus as much, due to me working 20 hours a week.

I'm like flipping out I'm so excited. Hopefully I won't be stressed out of my mind. But I guess, if I am stressed out of my mind, I can see it as payback for not being so stressed during college and hopefully having a low-stress professional life. I want to be an art professor, by the way. It's the life. The poor life, yes, but the life.

--- another note

I found out today, although I feel like I've heard it before, but if you marry someone you met on Birthright, the guy who is in charge of all the Birthright funds would pay for your honeymoon. I met my boyfriend on Birthright and we've been together for almost 3 years. My friend who told me about it said we should get married just for the 2nd free trip to Israel :-P


My feminist artmind is lacking.

Ever since last Thursday night I've been having personal issues with Houston. And I'm realizing, the "honeymoon" stage is wearing off and now I'm trying to get settled in... I'm getting that post-move depression again. I remember it from my sophomore year in college when I moved and didn't know anyone and felt like a loser. I'm bad about introducing myself. We went to a gallery opening yesterday and I wanted to go up to people and say hello, but I am so painfully afraid. I almost wasn't able to go into the show, I was so nervous of being judged. Like, maybe I'm not artsy enough (I know it's assinine but I can't help my self-esteem issues).

I'm going to try to be productive, though. It's different in this instance because I know so many people but I have no real friends outside of my boyfriend's friends and my roommate. She's also having similar issues but we are rarely home at the same time (we're both out trying to make friends). So I need to do productive things to further my personal goals, not just to further the goals of the synagogue, my youth group, etc. I want to do some art stuff. Really, I do!

Okay, this is my next project. I want to submit something for a feminist art show. I want to do a print or a painting like the one I did on the pulmonary system, this time for an ovary, or a testicle, or both at the same time (or in two separate works juxtaposed). I need to come up with a statement. My feminist artmind is lacking. Do I need to make a shocking statement about the state of women today? What is feminist art in the 21st century? I have to write an essay about the work in order for it to be considered and I just don't know if I'll have anything to say. I have until Sept 19 to make and submit it.

On another note.
I want to volunteer at an animal shelter - but a no-kill shelter. There are pros and cons to it, though. Pros are that I'll get to play with cats and dogs, which might satiate my desire to own one. Cons are that I might end up taking one or two or four home with me.


I'm still here...

My parents are visiting - they got here on Thurs and will leave on Thurs. It's hard because I'm already working full time so when I get home I am very tired but I have to see my parents and do stuff because I know the next time I will see them is November.

Anyway, eventualy I will write up a good post about my life so far. Job is great. Apartment is great. Relationship is great. Mah Jongg is great. etc etc ... more later I hope.